religion

So i grew up an every-sunday-church-going family. We attended an united methodist church. I never really questioned anything until in high school. I was always told "this is how it is", not "this is what we believe." My view of the world had always been one of clear wrong and right with my parents explaining that this view, or this person was wrong, this one was right and that was that. When i finally realized that the world could possibly be different from the way my mom described it, and started thinking, i just moved into a more basic christianity rebellion. I would take passages, messages, and concepts from the bible and began hating the hypocrisy i saw not only in my church but with many "christians." I tried to move towards what i thought was true christianity, which sometimes meant not judging the other christians who i thought were in the wrong. As i was "dismantling this manipulation" in an effort to find what the bible really said, i began to realize the true meaning is widely debated and it can be interpretted many ways. I also noticed all the contradictions. I really feel that we as humans need certainty. I guess scientifically speaking you could say that it is becuase of evolution. I'm sure the timid and doubtful would survive less often and die quicker than those that were always decisive and "certain."........gtg will cont.